Midterms
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: None; I'm at school
Topic: School
Today is the first day of school after the midterms. My midterms were crazy. My highest is a 103% in Religion and my lowest was some sort of F in Physics which I also failed for the quarter by .6 of a point. For the exams, I got an A- in English, C+ in Precalculus, I'm guessing a B in Physiology, an F on government, F on Physics, all A's and B's in French.
Terribly spiratic, no? Did I study? Heck yeah, mostly for government which I still failed. Though I failed, I still know my stuff. I ended up running out of time and I only completed one of the three essays and I also didn't complete all of the matching section.
Physics. I hate that class; its nothing like what I thought it would be. Very little actual science, mostly word problems and equations that are just given to us. Dr. Jones doesn't explain to us where these equations come from or anything like it. Its just numbers and I really don't like math. Its not my forte.
Everything else was pretty typical. Its a combination of good teachers who make you want to do well and my preparation. Most exams I never studied for except for these. Oddly, this is the first time that I ever failed an exam, let alone two.

Going Solo
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Johnny Cash - "I Walk the Line"
Topic: Me
I think that everytime I've felt lonely, it was just a reminder that I made it that way, as though I've chosen to be lonely. I chose to go to Bishop Hartley while every one of my best friends chose another high school. Many of them I don't really talk to a whole lot anymore. Though I did not choose to live in Pataskala, it is a fairly remote location comared to where many of my aquiantences live, primarily Columbus. The only time anyone ever comes over to visit is when Logan comes over to work on a school project. That's it. The same goes for phone calls. The only time anyone ever calls me is Logan calling in regards to homework. Recently I missed a Thursday and Friday from school due to illness and the only time I was contacted by anyone outside of my family was Logan calling me that Sunday night to see what the English homework was. That was four days without anyone calling me. And what do I while I wait? Well, I've recently been spending alot of time in my basement reading, writing, drawing, drumming, whatever I can think of. I've really turned into the Phantom, haven't I? Shutting myself off from the world in a dark and cold basement while I try to occupy myself: sounds like the Phantom to me.
But I don't sulk about it. I'm not nearly unhappy. In fact, I'm rather content with my situation. I realize that I can't just sit and wait for life to happen to me, I have to play my part also. So I don't really feel bad at all for my solitude. I kinda like it, and when I do feel lonely, that's what I remember, I kinda like it. I feel like I can concentrate more on what's really important in life; I can stay focused much more easily this way than by getting all caught up in a social life. I suppose it can be compared to a priest's celibacy. It gives him focus and direction.
Despite all this, there's still that part of me that wants to be on the scene, be a socialite. Or at least it might be nice for somebody to offer it to me. And after this want, I just return to why I'm sitting in a basement, the solitude, the celibacy of life.
Would I go out with a girl? Am I looking for a girlfriend? Yes, absolutely! Here is another place where I'm like the Phantom. I suppose that I'm waiting for just the right girl to allow into my life, my little world, my "basement".

Evil's Root
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Edith Piaf
Topic: Philosophy
Many people say "money is the root of all evil." I say that, ironically, happiness is the root of all evil. Happiness? Yes, and it just so happens that money makes many people happy.
Think about it, everything evil is for the sake of happiness. Divorce happens so the two individuals can live happily. War happens so one group of people can live happily and how they choose. Students can cheat on a test so they get a good grade and are happy.

Happiness is the root of all evil.

Qui etais La Hire?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Pearl Jam
Qui etais La Hire?
Who was La Hire?

La Hire (c.1390–c.1443) was a French military commander during the Hundred Years' War. He fought alongside Joan of Arc in the campaigns of 1429. His most significant action was to lead the vanguard in the important vanguard at Patay.
Born Etienne de Vignolles or Vignoles, La Hire joined Charles VII for the first time in 1418, when the English army invaded France. Three years later, in 1421 he fought at the Battle of Bauge.
He was a close comrade of Joan of Arc. As the King's captain he commanded the advance guard at the battle of Patay, a French victory. He won the battle of Gerbevoy in 1435 and was made Captain General of Normandy in 1438. He died at Montauban on January 11 1443 of an unknown illness.
- La HireWikipedia

Epicurus and Me
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Johnny Cash
Topic: Philosophy
Epicurus (341-270 B.C.) was a Greek philosopher who taught that pleasure is the only good and the end of all morality, trough a life of simplicity, prudence, honor, and justice. I tend to be epicurean in my life's philosophy. I can look at things and really see through however important they may seem; college, careers, money, is it really that important as long as you're happy? If I'm happy, what more do I need?
Many people can look at this and see this as a weakness of mine. They would say you're never going to get anywhere in life if you just sit around and do nothing so you can be happy. I never said anything about doing nothing, i just said i can see that "important" things are not really important at all. And its for this reason: I can be happy now by sitting around and not doing anything, but it risks not being happy later in life. Am I willing to perhaps not go to college for the sake of being happy right now? Absolutely not, because if I don't go to college now, I risk not being very happy at all later in life. I'm not going to give up long-term happiness for immediate happiness, but the difficulty comes in deciphering the two.